9 dumpsters; 4 cars.

so i went to take out the clutter from my kitchen, i.e. my recycling. norman has finally instated a curbside recycling program, but for those of us living in condominium complexes and apartments... its not quite so easy... so i deal with a little more clutter then take my clutter out across town (they took down my old recycling site about a year ago)... it always feels really nice to do. either because i'm exceptionally angry and shattering glass into a dumpster and makes me feel better or because i've done my itty bitty little part and got off my lazy ass to do it. today it felt more routine, i wasn't relieving my nerves or trying to make myself feel like a better person... i was just taking my recycling because it needed to be done. the nice part was the 4 other cars doing the same thing. i don't know that i've ever seen even one other car there much less been crowded for room. it was especially nice, and put a smile on my face, even amidst the crappy conversation i was having before doing it. so save your cans and bottles, and don't be acting like we don't all have a surplus of those... it seriously needs like 1 extra trashcan, bag, or recycle bin and 1/2 a second more thinking time before you throw something away. who knows... maybe with more recycling on our side, prices of things will go down with cheaper raw materials. :)

just an idea... if helping out the environment doesn't get you... and neither does possibly helping the economy... at least you don't have to take your garbage out as often and you can take out your anger on inanimate objects.

in no specific order...

top 5 favorite movie soundtracks:

1. Oh Brother, Where Art Thou?

2. The Anniversary Party

3. The Dreamers

4. The Royal Tenenbaums

5. Amelie

taking a hint

hints. signs. guardian angels. whatever you wanna call them, and wherever you want to believe they come from... i've decided not only would i like a few more, but i'd like them to be a LITTLE more clear. like... maybe a postcard addressed to me from God saying exactly what i need to do. or maybe some leaves spell it out, or airplane banner... anything... i'm tired of subtle signs.

Was i supposed to take the mcat computer SHUTTING DOWN ON ME last year as a sign to stop taking it, and that i should be doing something else? how about a perfect interview and still not getting in?

No. I didn't get into medical school again... last year, i got it. i knew i shouldn't have started last year... but this year??? really?? does this mean i need to try harder? or i'm supposed to go somewhere else? or i'm supposed to do something different all together? i am so lost with so many options, and i'm dying over here without a fairy godmother... and no more subtle signs. my brain is burned out and i'm obviously not getting them.

warning to my fairLY godperson. i'm going into the public health program for the fall as a special student. you have approximately 2 months to send me that postcard.