assurances

a few things you can be assured of:

1. people always let you down

2. politics are corrupt

3. there is always laundry to do

the lessons no one taught you.

in order to make it through life:

1. chill the hell out. just keep working and stay relaxed. everything will fall into place.

3. laugh at the people wearing... i don't even know WHAT it is that they're wearing, but it's amusing either way.

5. laugh at yourself, wear your hair crazy and mismatch every once in a while.

7. lay in the grass

9. read a book

11. watch people and make up your own story about their life at that moment

13. drive around and sing as loud as you can (this also should take place in the shower, and while skipping down streets)

15. take a midnight or dawn walk and don't talk to anyone, just notice everything around you

17. stare into the sky and realize your insignificance and the significance of who and where you are as a result, geographically, in life, in the universe, immediately and in the long run.

19. spend time doing absolutely nothing with people (both that you don't know and that you care about greatly)

21. do the hokey pokey. c'mon. you know you want to. no one is watching... put your left leg in.

*shrug* i think these things help me anyways.

medical anomale part C

it seems that anytime in my academic lifetime that i am under great about of pressure to perform well and get a vast amount of "stuff" done, i undergo some sort of odd medical condition... so here i am... MCAT coming up in a couple weeks, labs taking over my life, classes becoming perpetually more intense... and what happens... EMERGENCY SURGERY ON MY FACE. geez.

lemme preface a little bit.
about 4 years ago i, being genetically prone to cavaties, had many cavaties in my mouth. i went into the dentist to have them filled. only i did one half at a time. i did my right half one fateful day, and i never ended up doing my other half. the half that i didn't do has never given me one problem, however, the half that was "fixed" has repeatedly given me pain and sleepless nights. this began to happen about 2 times per year... and this week, once again i felt the pain a bit of swelling, only the swelling kept getting worse and worse until the right side of my face was ridiculously huge. i looked like the phantom of the opera (or quasimodo as my mother said). after a complete breakdown, i decided to skip the rest of the day and go to the city to have my face looked at. a dentist referred me to a specialist and i had to consequently have an abcess drained, a nerve removed, an infection treated, and a root canal begun. needless to say, my face hurts. it hurts to laugh, and i look ridiculous if i try to smile. all in PERFECT timing of a week and a month where i can't afford to miss anything. so, don't flinch or ask me "what's wrong with your face," don't make fun of me for not being able to get normal sized food in my mouth...i didn't gain 50 pounds in my face. i just had to fix yet another medical crazy in the life of mary.

and thats where we are right now.
bah.