taking a hint

hints. signs. guardian angels. whatever you wanna call them, and wherever you want to believe they come from... i've decided not only would i like a few more, but i'd like them to be a LITTLE more clear. like... maybe a postcard addressed to me from God saying exactly what i need to do. or maybe some leaves spell it out, or airplane banner... anything... i'm tired of subtle signs.

Was i supposed to take the mcat computer SHUTTING DOWN ON ME last year as a sign to stop taking it, and that i should be doing something else? how about a perfect interview and still not getting in?

No. I didn't get into medical school again... last year, i got it. i knew i shouldn't have started last year... but this year??? really?? does this mean i need to try harder? or i'm supposed to go somewhere else? or i'm supposed to do something different all together? i am so lost with so many options, and i'm dying over here without a fairy godmother... and no more subtle signs. my brain is burned out and i'm obviously not getting them.

warning to my fairLY godperson. i'm going into the public health program for the fall as a special student. you have approximately 2 months to send me that postcard.