psychosis follow-up
okay, so today, i tried something new and different.
i figured i would present our families problems to my mother in a way that she might better respond. i acted as if she were a psychologist, as she is, and i just presented... i've noticed that you and dad do this and this, and i do the same thing, i don't believe this is effective and maybe we should try this... yeah... that didn't work... she just got defensive and claimed that she didn't do anything wrong and i did... strike one.
okay, fine... so you don't do anything wrong, try to look at it from my perspective. here is what frustrates me. do you realize that i am unable to even fully complete an idea or proposal without it being shot down and denied. before you have any idea what the extent of the proposal may be, you already have your mind set that i'm wrong and my idea is ridiculous and purely oppositional. i see irony here. strike two.
as i sat there trying my best to do what i hate most (talk to my mother in a fashion suited for any therapists office)... i noticed that she herself turned into a therapist. hearing but not listening, and doing the unthinkable. she did what all therapists probably want to do half the time, but don't... she did this b/c she was comfortable b/c she was with me. she covered her face b/c she was laughing... just outright laughing that i was trying to tell her what was bothering me and trying to discuss it without fighting. strike three.
so... i don't see me trying to get through to them happening again in the near future. i'm pretty much done with that... i figure i'll just go about the way i have gone about it, the same way she goes about it with her mother... just leave everything unresolved, deal with it, and go lead your own life elsewhere 6 days a week.
apparently you can't talk to a psycho like a normal human being... them or their psychotic kids.
i figured i would present our families problems to my mother in a way that she might better respond. i acted as if she were a psychologist, as she is, and i just presented... i've noticed that you and dad do this and this, and i do the same thing, i don't believe this is effective and maybe we should try this... yeah... that didn't work... she just got defensive and claimed that she didn't do anything wrong and i did... strike one.
okay, fine... so you don't do anything wrong, try to look at it from my perspective. here is what frustrates me. do you realize that i am unable to even fully complete an idea or proposal without it being shot down and denied. before you have any idea what the extent of the proposal may be, you already have your mind set that i'm wrong and my idea is ridiculous and purely oppositional. i see irony here. strike two.
as i sat there trying my best to do what i hate most (talk to my mother in a fashion suited for any therapists office)... i noticed that she herself turned into a therapist. hearing but not listening, and doing the unthinkable. she did what all therapists probably want to do half the time, but don't... she did this b/c she was comfortable b/c she was with me. she covered her face b/c she was laughing... just outright laughing that i was trying to tell her what was bothering me and trying to discuss it without fighting. strike three.
so... i don't see me trying to get through to them happening again in the near future. i'm pretty much done with that... i figure i'll just go about the way i have gone about it, the same way she goes about it with her mother... just leave everything unresolved, deal with it, and go lead your own life elsewhere 6 days a week.
apparently you can't talk to a psycho like a normal human being... them or their psychotic kids.
posted by bitterhoney at 8:36 PM
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