nothing monumental

this topic seems to have come up quite frequently recently, so i thought i would comment on it.

with respect to people i'm surrounded by... friends, relatives, whatever...even perfect strangers:

when i first meet someone they have about 100% respect and about 0% trust.
respect is lost fairly easily, and once lost becomes severely difficult to regain. trust is really hard to gain in the first place, i don't believe one person has the 100% trust. this is not to be discouraging, and i don't think it's harsh at all, although i've been told that it is. yes. i hold grudges, yes i don't really trust you, i might respect you, even if i dislike you. but just to let you know, i'm also a nice and fair person. i'll give you as many chances as you want to gain trust or respect. really, as much as people might think it... i'm not a cold-hearted bitch, unless you deserve it.

and a funny story to add on:
mizi and i were sitting waiting for some pizza to arrive at the commmons when two black men in a black SUV pull up. they're talking to us for a bit and then were like... "what are you uncomfortable talking to two black men?" yeah no... no problem with black people. i don't really like it when random guys drive up out of nowhere telling me to go "watch boxing" with them. what my response should have been? "what!? are you just uncomfortable talking to two arabs?" they would have peeled out without another word.