isn't it funny
its funny how life works out. all summer, for those of you who are in the know and aren't, i've been down... i lost a few friends, and it seemed like everyone that was important to me wasn't around anymore, except for mizi... (excluding family i live with)... and i really was feeling that emptyness. especially towards the end of july.
i don't believe i ever blogged this, but a few weeks ago after the nightmares i had, i spent the night at mizi's... i was afraid i would have nightmares again, but rather i had a dream about elie. i walked into a big empty room with a poker table in the middle of it and a bunch of the arab guys were sitting around the table. elie was one of them and as i saw him my jaw dropped and i wanted to go hug him. the guys around the table wouldn't let me hug him at first, but were like, here hug this guy... finally, i did get to hug elie and talk to him and he said that he had just decided to come into town but he was only going to be in a few days and we probably couldn't hang out much. i started crying in the dream and woke up missing my best friend like crazy.
This last weekend i went to baltimore. and i had a spectacular weekend. it was just what i was looking for. i missed my big sister, and was alotted a TON of hang out time with her. PLUS we got to go see ozomatli (check out the autographs i got)... anyways, that weekend really made me feel better and i dreaded returning to classes for finals week. the next day after i returned i was supposed to meet mizi and renee for lunch at the union. they were taking a while, so i went to grab my food. they showed up as i grabbed it and as we headed back to the schooner room, i saw the elie look-a-like leaning against a magazine stand. i stopped and stared, this time gawking more than staring. all that was going through my head was how much i missed him, and "DAMN that guy looks more and more like elie every day, this is really getting ridiculous." well, as i was about to turn to mizi and renee to show them the elie look-a-like i noticed that they were smiling and had stopped walking and the guy started laughing. i think i almost went into cardiac arrest, slowly put my bookbag and salad down somewhere and went up to him and gave him the hug i needed so badly. IT WAS ELIE. he just showed up. he showed up when i needed him so much. although he's not here that long, i have been hanging out with him everyday and i still will randomly look at him, and not really believe that he's here. i don't think i've ever actually been that surprised. especially that pleasantly surprised.
i'm afraid he's just going to disappear if i let him out of my site... and i don't know what i'm going to do when he leaves. i don't have any idea when i'll see him again.
so i got all of my best friends at once. my sister all weekend, and elie for a little over a week, and of course mizi is here. i got my real friends back for a while, which I think may be the best gift i've ever received. its so nice to have quality friends that you can just sit and talk to for hours and not get bored with. i may be gushing on them... but i don't think they can ever really realize how much this means to me and how much i really needed it.
isn't it funny how things work out?
i'm a happy happy girl.
i don't believe i ever blogged this, but a few weeks ago after the nightmares i had, i spent the night at mizi's... i was afraid i would have nightmares again, but rather i had a dream about elie. i walked into a big empty room with a poker table in the middle of it and a bunch of the arab guys were sitting around the table. elie was one of them and as i saw him my jaw dropped and i wanted to go hug him. the guys around the table wouldn't let me hug him at first, but were like, here hug this guy... finally, i did get to hug elie and talk to him and he said that he had just decided to come into town but he was only going to be in a few days and we probably couldn't hang out much. i started crying in the dream and woke up missing my best friend like crazy.
This last weekend i went to baltimore. and i had a spectacular weekend. it was just what i was looking for. i missed my big sister, and was alotted a TON of hang out time with her. PLUS we got to go see ozomatli (check out the autographs i got)... anyways, that weekend really made me feel better and i dreaded returning to classes for finals week. the next day after i returned i was supposed to meet mizi and renee for lunch at the union. they were taking a while, so i went to grab my food. they showed up as i grabbed it and as we headed back to the schooner room, i saw the elie look-a-like leaning against a magazine stand. i stopped and stared, this time gawking more than staring. all that was going through my head was how much i missed him, and "DAMN that guy looks more and more like elie every day, this is really getting ridiculous." well, as i was about to turn to mizi and renee to show them the elie look-a-like i noticed that they were smiling and had stopped walking and the guy started laughing. i think i almost went into cardiac arrest, slowly put my bookbag and salad down somewhere and went up to him and gave him the hug i needed so badly. IT WAS ELIE. he just showed up. he showed up when i needed him so much. although he's not here that long, i have been hanging out with him everyday and i still will randomly look at him, and not really believe that he's here. i don't think i've ever actually been that surprised. especially that pleasantly surprised.
i'm afraid he's just going to disappear if i let him out of my site... and i don't know what i'm going to do when he leaves. i don't have any idea when i'll see him again.
so i got all of my best friends at once. my sister all weekend, and elie for a little over a week, and of course mizi is here. i got my real friends back for a while, which I think may be the best gift i've ever received. its so nice to have quality friends that you can just sit and talk to for hours and not get bored with. i may be gushing on them... but i don't think they can ever really realize how much this means to me and how much i really needed it.
isn't it funny how things work out?
i'm a happy happy girl.
posted by bitterhoney at 4:34 AM
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