invisible importance

who isn't lonely in some way? even being surrounded by people doesn't really make you any less alone. but how do you get over IT? and i don't mean being lonely. i mean--how do you get over that thing... that thing that showed up in your life out of nowhere and changed it forever. you didn't mean for it to show up or to change you... you probably didn't even know it was happening at the time. and that's what we miss and we're missing and lonely from.

that's what is so messed up about the whole thing... you didn't know it was even there... then it's gone and it was the most important thing that had happened to you... and how do you get over that? by the time i probably do come around, i'll probably miss the next important appearance because i was too busy unable to to get over being befuddled by the last one.

that's sorta irritating.