Oh yeah, I'm fine.

So here I am... just as i expected, i'm nowhere i expected to be. I got the interview, I'm graduating, blah blah blah... but then, i didn't get in, rejected--not waitlisted. Mishka is going to die in a couple of weeks, and its like i'm losing my best friend. Shes been there with me for everything... blah blah shes a dog, shes more than that.. i mean... shes been in the family half as long as i have... There have been other disappoints, other shortcomings, and other good times. people have come and people have gone, hearts broken, hearts won. And here i am... but i'm not upset... this year was given to me as an opportunity, and i'm going to take it for all its worth. on that note... i'll leave you with this song... Lily Allen knows whats on my mind, and this song is perfect for me right now... i'll give more explaination as things unravel. I'm just content for the time being-- and actually sorta happy i didn't get into med school this year. it explains how i feel about you, and me, and about everything in between... i suggest you download the song as well.

Everything's Just Wonderful - Lily Allen

Do you think, everything, everyone, is going mental,
It seems to me that it's spiraling outta control and it's inevitable,
Now don't you think,
This time is yours, this time is mine,
Its temperamental,
It seems to me, we're on all fours,
Crawling on our knees,
Someone help us please

Oh Jesus Christ almighty,
Do I feel alright? No not slightly,
I wanna get a flat I know I can't afford it,
It's just the bureaucrats who won't give me a mortgage,
Well it's very funny cos I got your fucking money,
And I'm never gonna get it just because of my bad credit
Oh well I guess I mustn't grumble,
I suppose that's just the way the cookie crumbles.

Oh yeah, I'm fine,
Everything's just wonderful,
I'm having the time of my life.

Don't you want something else,
Something new, than what we've got here,
And don't you feel it's all the same,
Some sick game and it's not insincere,
I wish I could change the ways of the world,
Make it a nice place
Until that day, I guess we stay,
Doing what we do
Screwing who we screw

Why can't I sleep at night,
Don't say it's gonna be alright,
I wanna be able to eat spaghetti bolognaise,
and not feel bad about it for days and days and days.
In the magazines they talk about weight loss,
If I buy those jeans I can look like Kate Moss,
Oh no it's not the life I chose,
But I guess that's the way that things go.