keepin' it real

people are never who them seem to be, or what they portray themselves as. then there are the people who are real. you can see it in their eyes, in their smile, in their actions. they have a love for people and it seeps through their skin. these people touch lives, for me. even if i never see these people again, they leave an impression that lasts forever. Carmen came over today. living with her this summer... at first i was worried, but i knew she would be better than living with anyone else. i was so wrong. i couldn't have had a better roomie. i love carmen. she is one of the people i CAN be around 24 hours a day without getting sick of her... she is real, and i miss her being around.

i've always hated fake people. sure there are social situations where i'm expected to be fake, but i try to keep it as real as i can without my mom getting angry with me. fake people. they make me livid. why? why can't you just be yourself? just say and act how you feel. if people hate you for it, at least its real. you don't have a love from people that is nothing but plastic.

elaine said one time that i lived in wonderland. and although not in the context she meant it, i think i do. so do most of the people around me. everyone has problems, but be thankful for what you have and enjoy your life. because if you are just upset, you're probably missing something wonderful right in front of you. and you'll regret it later. so just get over it and look around...dance in the rain...enjoy all nighters...take time out and cuddle up with hot chocolate and your friends... be real.