revelations on awkward times
so... elaine told me this a long time ago, but after a day of reminescing, i fully finally believe her. i am finally grateful for my awkward stages, being in orchestra and girl scouts, and being told that i would never succeed in academics. irony and chance have led me to where i am today. i mean...
elementary school: 1. i never got a gold star, i couldn't finish the timed math tests fast enough to get one. 2. i joined orchestra so i could be...uh... cool...weird path to go down for that... middle school: i had no friends in 7th grade. 2. can we say awkward stage? 3. i had 3 different teachers that i can remember point out to me that i would never make it in academics and that i should stop trying. high school: i finally developed some confidence my senior year. 2. i hung out in orchestra a lot. 3. started AP and my jobs...
what do i want to do now more than anything?
1. go back to middle school and tell my 8th grade Algebra teacher that i finished through calc two my senior year, and i want to tell all three of the asshole teachers that i finished 6th in my class and i'm doing GREAT in school.
2. i want to go up to all the people that made fun of me for being in orchestra, girl scouts, and or for being awkward that i now have a personality, and they haven't changed at all, and they're pathetic and stupid and petty, and gosh-durnit. people like me.
thank you awkward stages in my life. thank you people who didn't believe in me. i've shown you all... i'm prettier than you, i have a personality, and i'm smarter than you. you're teaching middle school and you hate your life while i'm happy and i'm going to save the world. to all of you...a big FUCK YOU very much. if you're going to be a teacher for an already horrible stage in someone's life. at LEAST be supportive.
i'm floored by where i've gotten by complete chance and procrastination. because almost everything i am today falls into that category.
elementary school: 1. i never got a gold star, i couldn't finish the timed math tests fast enough to get one. 2. i joined orchestra so i could be...uh... cool...weird path to go down for that... middle school: i had no friends in 7th grade. 2. can we say awkward stage? 3. i had 3 different teachers that i can remember point out to me that i would never make it in academics and that i should stop trying. high school: i finally developed some confidence my senior year. 2. i hung out in orchestra a lot. 3. started AP and my jobs...
what do i want to do now more than anything?
1. go back to middle school and tell my 8th grade Algebra teacher that i finished through calc two my senior year, and i want to tell all three of the asshole teachers that i finished 6th in my class and i'm doing GREAT in school.
2. i want to go up to all the people that made fun of me for being in orchestra, girl scouts, and or for being awkward that i now have a personality, and they haven't changed at all, and they're pathetic and stupid and petty, and gosh-durnit. people like me.
thank you awkward stages in my life. thank you people who didn't believe in me. i've shown you all... i'm prettier than you, i have a personality, and i'm smarter than you. you're teaching middle school and you hate your life while i'm happy and i'm going to save the world. to all of you...a big FUCK YOU very much. if you're going to be a teacher for an already horrible stage in someone's life. at LEAST be supportive.
i'm floored by where i've gotten by complete chance and procrastination. because almost everything i am today falls into that category.
posted by bitterhoney at 2:56 AM
2 Comments:
Yeah, jackass! You had me!
Also, "you're teaching middle school and you hate your life while i'm happy and i'm going to save the world."
There is nothing wrong with being a teacher...some people actually believe it's like...a noble profession...[cough]i haven't ruled out teaching as a career [cough]
i have nothing against being a teacher. i would actually like to do it. however, the specific teachers afore mentioned SAID they didn't want to be teaching. especially middle school. and if you are just there because you have to be and you don't actually like or believe in your job... you suck as a teacher and you suck at life. a teacher is an underrated career that should be undertaken by only those people who see the value of that career. not by bitter awful people who can't do anything else. and if you are going to be a teacher, especially to middle school don't EVER EVER EVER discourage your pupils from trying and challenging themselves. don't ever tell them to quit. not that early on. thats just wrong.
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